I wish

I wish everything wasn’t so complicated

I wish I could look at myself in the mirror and love the reflection I see…

Without you I’m not sure I know who I’ll be…

I wish you were easier to recognize sometimes..

But my troubles don’t keep you around anymore.

There’s no looking backwards to your smile.

If there was some way to get back to that place

I would go there and dream for a while….


I give up.

Just to think about spendng my days without you breaks my heart and I almost can’t breathe, and I hate it, but there is no better choice. I’m in a thousand tiny pieces and it’s only getting worse for me with time… The time they say is supposed to heal. The time and space I’m supposed to need..

I think it’s time that maybe I should stop and think a little bit ’bout what it’s costing me to be here.. My sanity is hanging by a thread and I am barely holding on and I cant take it….

I’ll die.

To make matters worse I have apparently alienated the one friend I’ve managed to hang onto through it all.

I am so angry at everything and everyone that it’s suffocating me..

I am so very alone….

I am so very broken….